"YOU'LL NEVER KNOW WHAT YOU HAD TILL ITS GONE"
the most overused quote.. but still, its sooooooooooo damn true!! don't ya think? one of the few quotes I could actually relate to.. keep thinking about this to yourself and the meaning expands.. and regret comes to mind.. but everything happens for a reason.. not necessarily a good one.. but still.. you guys know what I mean!
I AM TRULY SORRY JME..
AND I MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!
(if only you knew)
and today, I was listening to utada hikaru (first love) and my heart sank right into my chest… that song was soooooooooooo sad!!!!!!!! I miss my boo booooooooo!!! *WARGH* its like the song was written to meeeee!!! and that SUCKS! cause I'm always the happy-go-lucky typa girl and I'm not "ME" anymore!!! I miss him soooooooo much!! and I wish.. I wish a lot of things would happen.. =[ and what koi said to su su in BIO the other day was ringing in my head.. he said that if the guy really cares, he would come back to her.. drop all his EGO and come back to her.. that was what he did when he broke up with lynn a couple hundred times.. so I was thinking.. MAYBE HE JUST DOESN'T CARE ANYMORE! MAYBE ITS OVER.. AND I SHOULD JUST LEAVE IT (PERIOD) and I think I might just do so.
but if I had a chance, I would have never done the things I've done to you now.. and if the time machine WAS invented miraculously.. I would definitely turn back time.. to be with you again.. T____T" cause life just has no purpose without you.. its just not the same.. it'll never be the same..
and if everyone deserves a second chance.. then maybe you'll let me have mine?
I'M A GODDAMN IDIOT! I KNOW! I broke up with the dude on his birthday and now I want him back?? I know I know… that's why I'm taking my time… deciding if its even worth it.. cause I DON'T want to make the same mistakes twice.. and I don't want to hurt him again!
URGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
okay ppl.. that's just ME at the moment.. sad by true.. and oh yeh.. MIKE IS SUCH AN ASSHOLE! so don't even ask about him..
xx me
FIRST LOVE
utada hikaru
Saigo no kisu wa tabako no flavor ga shita Nigakute setsunai kaori Ashita no imagoro ni wa Anata wa doko ni irundarou Dare wo omotterundarou You are always gonna be my love Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo I'll remember to love you taught me how You are always gonna be the one Ima wa mada kanashii love song Atarashi uta utaeru made Tachidomaru jikan ga Ugoki dasouto shiteru Wasureta kunai kotobakari Ashita no imagoro niwa Watashi wa kitto naiteru Anatawo omotterundarou You will always be inside my heart Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara I hope that I have a place in your heart too Now and forever you are still the one Ima wa mada kanashii love song Atarashii uta utaeru made You are always gonna be my love Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo I'll remember to love you taught me how You are always gonna be the one Mada kanashii love song Now and forever | 
